AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

I'M IN THE AIRPORT NOW!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!

wah liew.. free internet service and got webcam somemore.... hahahaaa.... got so many x box here also, but taken up by kiddies... hahaa...

flight in 1hrs time.. 12 hr flight to frankfurt germany, den another 9 hrs to us...

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!

this is too good to be true!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!

ahhhhhh@!#$@!#

Farewell...

my last blog entry before i leave...

song: evermore

the quality kinda suck, but who cares... hahaa..

enjoy#$@!

CHRISTmas...

20 MORE HOURS!!! approximately...

now... christmas, the time where people celebrate a season of giving, exchanging presents and the birth of Christ.. but one thing which many people do not know.. we all know that this isnt the exact date which Jesus was borned, and nobody knows when... not many people know that the date of Christmas, but the day itself came from pagan origins, which is disgusting when you look deeper into it...

The origin of this festivity is presumed to be Mithraic and about 4000 years old. Mithra was the god of light in ancient Iran. The symbol of Mithra is Sun. Iranians used this symbol in their flag for at least the last 2500 years. The period of 17th to 24th of December was the duration of this feast. The 21st of December, which is the solstice of winter, is still celebrated in Iran. It is called “Yalda” and it represents the victory of light over darkness, which symbolizes the triumph of good over evil. Mithraism was brought to Europe by Greek soldiers after the defeat of the Persians by Alexander and by the forth century AD it was the predominant religion of Europe and the main rival to Christianity. The worship of Mithra spread throughout Asia to Europe where he was called Deus Sol Invictus Mithras. Romans adopted this festivity to celebrate the god, Saturn, and the rebirth of the sun god during the winter solstice. The winter holiday became known as Saturnalia and began the week prior to December 25th. The festival was characterized by gift-giving, feasting, singing and the priests of Saturn called dendrophori, carried wreaths of evergreen boughs in procession.

ok.. i copied this whole arcticle from http://www.faithfreedom.org/oped/sina21224.htm ... dun tell dr kan.. =p
yea... the evergreen boughs are also those circle leafs thingy you hang on your door...

easter is also of pagan origins.

The (Easter) bunny, the oldest pagan symbol of fertility - Semiramis - has absolutely NOTHING to do with the birth of Christ.

http://www.goodnewsaboutgod.com/studies/holidays2.htm

well, not that i'm against these festivals, but we have to make sure that all of us celebrates these seasons with a right heart, a heart that will honour God... i myself am against the idea of these festivals because it is not of the word of God but of pagan origins... HOWEVER, we could still use these dates as a remembrance of Jesus, His sacrifice for us, instead of for plain fun and fun alone.. oh wells...

leaving tomorrow night!!! WHOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!! snow snow snow snow snow snow!!! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..............

dunno if i can get gifts for you guys.. no $$$... haha... but will try... in case i do not make it back alive, which i doubt so, i wanna tell you guys that God is everything... you may not believe in Him now, but it doesnt mean you wont in the future.. you have a chance, grab it when its there... well, that sounds very final, as if i'm dying for sure, but i'm not taking any chances... haha...

oh wells... cya around guys... next year perhaps... maybe i may even blog later in the afternoon when i have time...

enjoy!@!$&%$#

ABCD...

48 HOURS LEFT!!!

performing at esplanade park tomorrow night from 5.30-8pm.. come come!! its free! its from the singapore youth for christ, the one which wei kang went for, but this time at esplanade park.. haha.. F-I-N-L-A-N-D

aniwaes, packed 98% of my stuffs already, the remaining consists of my toothbrush, toothpaste, gel, laundry bag, erm, what else, my wedding coat, which is with my bro... i think thats it... have to bring a whole bunch of books for my sis, if not my bags will be much lighter... the worst thing is that i dont have my cd player with me.. =(
its with my grandfather... long story that one is...

anyways, i heard both my bro's and dad's students won 1st place in the violin competition, the junior and intermediate category.. haha... expected... =p

my dad kinda scolded me for doing things at the last minute today, which i don't think so... i was outside with my church friends, and he said that i should be home packing my bags... oh wells, not against him or anything, and i don't like to dishonour my parents, but i think i know what i'm doing, and i can handle things myself.. i sure don't need them to worry about the way i do things... i guess sometimes he just cant trust me enough, cause sometimes things happen when we overlook them, so i guess i don't blame him... but things ended well today...

oh, and i got my school results back today.. wah liew... very weird lehz.. i scored badly for some subjects which i did quite well, i think...

music technology - A
study skills - B
concert attendance - D (!!!) i should have scored well for this!!
performance projects - B
harmony - D (!!!) expected to fail.. haha...
history - C (!!!) i thought i got a B!!
aural and sightsinging - C
principle study - cello - B (!!!) higher than expected...
string studies - B

credit attempted- 20
credit point - 52
credit earned - 20

hahaa.... oh, in case you're curious, D is a pass instead of C... not secondary school anymore.. and i have no idea how the credit thingy works... oh wells, i'm really surprised i passed everything, and the honour has to go to God... wouldnt have done it without Him..

okay... jwen leaving tomorrow evening, evan in penang, and i'm leaving on sunday night... my flight is at 2355... anybody wanna send me off? =p

enjoy#@!$

$500!!

2 MORE DAYS!!!

went to get my passport today.. sooo new and clean... i damaged my previous one coz i left it in the washing machine.. bleah...

went winter shopping too... bought a number of stuffs, and my dad spent around $500 worth of winter stuffs... we bought this thermal pants, which is like a very very thin pyjamas pants, and guess how much does each cost... $63!!! wah lau... for that pants!!!?? from italy they say... doh! aniwaes, bought ski gloves too, and wool socks, and a woolen sweater... haha...

not sure if i'm going to the violin competition finals later.. so early in the morning.. my bro's and dad's student got in, intermediate and junior respectively... haha... my dad said from the looks of it, both of them should get 1st... they're siblings btw.. can help but notice that not a single nafa violin joined the competition.. haha.. sianz... wait til they have a cello competition, then, muahahahaa.... well, on second thought, i never really liked competitions... it puts me down watching people play so well.. crappo... inferiority complex... besides, playing is all about character, and the judges' decision is not always the best... they should have a vote, like american idol or something... haha...

but singaporean youths nowadays, haiz... just dunno how to appreciate classical music... well, get this, without classical music, pop, rock, jazz, new age, whatever you can think of, wont be here... classical music was the step to refining music, the time where music is controlled by laws so that it will be called MUSIC... scratching records, people screaming and electrical sounds are not music, they are called noise, it is not natural... well, anyways, whatever...

2 more days man... 2 more days.................

enjoy#@%$#@

Merica...

3 MORE DAYS!!!

got diarrhoea yesterday.. bleah... shall blog more tomorrow...

enjoy!#@#@

(song: star wars - across the stars)

Mee...

5 MORE DAYS!!!

havent been blogging for 2 days i think... nothing much happened anyways... seng fu and aloysius stayed over at my house yesterday, and they made a mess out of my room... they left some maggie mee on my bed and they turned my room upside down... =.=
and they couldnt help themselves from touching my lightsaber... oh, talking about it, we were trying to make a short movie clip using my lightsaber... haha... we only managed to make one, with me being the cameraman... i'll try to upload it one of these days.. its quite dumb... they kept hitting my cardboard and my ceiling light, and i almost broke it... oh wells..

i need to go winter shopping soon, got lots of winter wear to get before leaving for the states... anybody wanna join? haha... probably not...

ooook... nothing else here...

enjoy#!$#@

Cothen...

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...........
6 more days to america!!! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh.... too good to be true...

aniwaes, played for singapore youth for christ yesterday, and wei kang came to watch it... he thought he was tricked into coming, but it was actually his own mistake... haha... it went quite well, but the a capella group went a little out of tune after awhile... oh wells... then took a cab home for my house concert which my dad organised... on the way home, my dad called me and told me i have to play something... !!! wah liew... the concert is like 3 hours away?? so bo bian lorh... nothing to play.. no pianist to accompany me also, so muz play bach suite.. haha.. getting sick of that song liao... so, during the performance, i told the audience a little about bach and his suites, and i told them he wrote it in cothen... right??? i mean, he wrote it in cothen right??? please tell me that i'm right... wait... i go check my history portfolios to see if i'm right.........................................................

YES!!! I'M RIGHT!!! HE WROTE IT IN COTHEN!!! AHHHHHHHHHH.... i'm juz good... =p

anyways, i learnt a huge lesson from that performance... NEVER ever, and i mean EVER, put rosin on your bow without trying it out again after putting it... i did it.. the bow's resistance was not what i expected to be and weird sounds came from the strings... and it was hard to control my bow... just wasnt used to the sudden change of resistance after putting on the rosin... oh wells... yong rui joined us too, and i played a trick on him.. haha.. i told him that my dad said he had to play something... and he had totally nothing to play... and he panicked.. hahahaa... he was like searching all my piano scores for songs to sight-read... so he found out that he didnt need to... drats...

as for today, played basketball with my friends... haha... lost to a team of girls, 11-10... their shooting is really good, and they are from some school team from some jc... had some unhealthy bodily contact too... haiz... just not used to playing contact sports with girls.. oh wells... haha... no, i'm not a chauvanist pig, at least not now...

probably...

enjoy!@#!

AHHHHHHHHH!!!

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.................
my com's finally back... the adwares gone, so no more pornographic ads will be popping out in front of my face... bleah...

aniwaes, come to think of it, i have nothing much to blog about... oh... yes... i dreamt of her again, 2 nights in a row... hahahhaaa.... no, its not only about her, it invloves the whole snyo and especially mr lim... hhaaa... scary... was supposed to play solo or something like that.. it was 2 nights ago, cant remember... oh wells..

performing for singapore youth for christ tomorrow... haha... those interested contact me... and andris will be playing in a competition tomorrow... haha.. all the best, too bad she doesnt want anybody to go there to support her.. will freak her out she says... haha... i think its the same competiotn li tong took part in... its piano also... soo many competitions going on now... violins are taking part this coming weekend... oh yea... i saw the advertisement for the chinese weekly discussion or dunno what, about the taxi drivers one.. wah lau... see? i'm not the only one having problems with them... haha... oh wells, they better do something about it...

so thats it... nothing to post... oh...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MISS (soon Mrs) SI-NING!!! oi... havent bought your present yet.. will try to find a good one, and pass it to you in the states.. haha.. ^^

enjoy!@!

The Universe...

wowwwwwwww....
oh man... went to audrey's birthday party today.. haha... ate a lot for the bbq... it was really fun.. and i juzt realised today that i didnt like beer, but i already opened a bottle of heineken, so i have no choice but to finish it... well, it appears that audrey's brother, martin, admires me.. ahaaa... ok.. maybe i think too much.. bhb... but it appears that he holds me in quite a high position.. haha... when i entered his house, he wanted me to play a piece on tommy's cello, and i just didnt know what to play... haha.. so i was playing crappy stuff, a little of bach's suite, a little of haydn... he's quite a nice guy, but i guess he's a little down about his ability on the violin.. he's only sec 1, and he's taking grade 7 already... and he says he's not as good compared to tommy, his brother.. i mean, man, if that's bad, look at me man... took grade 8 at sec 4, my siblings were at the states at my age, and here i am, studying at nafa in singapore... oh wells, in any case, lets just see how it goes for me in the future...

aniwaes, after the bbq, the gang lied down beside the pool and gazed at the night sky... it is sooooooooo amazing... i found so many stars which i never knew was there! i realised that theres actually a small cluster of stars, the size of ur thumb if you were to point it toward the sky with your arm out-stretched, that was made up of 6 or more stars! it is soo amazing!

wow... as we gazed through the sky, something struck my mind.. wow.. isnt the universe amazing? there has to be a creator behind it! and that is God! i mean, there isnt any other way to explain the creation of everything in this universe! the big bang? what was it before the big bang? something had to be there! even stephen hawking doesnt know what was there before it! everything we see here, the universe, earth, plants, humans, millions and billions of stars, made by God! i mean, wow! you cant say that we evolved from apes... the theory isnt even proven at all! it simply says that all animals came from a simple cell, and it evolved to what is known as us today.. why do they say that? because all of the animals had a common part of their body that links to the rest, example, the sealion used to have legs, but they developed fins because they seldom used their legs, but the evidence of their legs are in their bone structure, which are also similar to whales and dolphins, etc... then let me ask you one thing, if i were to use a lego set to create 2 different animals, lets say a human, and a horse, and i used a blue piece on both figures, does that mean they came from one piece and became two different spieces of lego figures? no! in fact, it is also saying that there is a creator who uses the same piece in his creations! i mean, ok, i think many of you wont understand what i'm saying, but basically, evolution is rubbish... it is not even a proven and fool-proof theory and the world is adopting it as if it was a fact... it is not... and there is only another possibility of our existence, and that is God.. the only reason why many people do not adopt this idea is because they don't like it, or they do not believe in it... well, whether you like it or not, or whether you believe it or not, its true... what you think doesnt change the fact... look around you.. the fact that the earth is sooo perfect for supporting life... the exact amount of sunlight, which even a 1% difference in it will destroy life, the distance between earth and the sun, which is also put to absolute accuracy for life, everything, was made for us to live! it is not by chance that some explosion made this piece of rock alive, or that we evolved from some microscopic organism... the structure of our dna is so complex and perfect, that it has to be designed by someone or something, which is God!!!

oh wells, i hope none of you are offended by this post... just telling you what i believe in... i mean, there is no way that the universe does not point to God... if you would like to prove me wrong, i am more than pleased to discuss it with you.. ^^ but i do not mean to offend anybody k? this is a darn sensitive topic, so dont sue me!!

enjoy~!~ (if u can)

Slacking...

ooook....
she's not angry anymore... haiz... i'm not going to make the same stupid mistake again... never.... well, in any case, sorry about everything...

oh well... went out today... watched zathura with my friends... it was really good.. haha... its almost exactly like jumanji, but its space this time instead of jungle stuffs... its really good and funny.. but its just a little predictable.. like you kinda know what will save them next, you know? yea... spoils the excitement... but its still good!

anyways, helped chien han with his mmm (?) project, which was to create a website about a topic.. and he chose "undiscovered talents: music".. hahaa... and he's using me as the main subject.. ahahaa... actually he should do on people like andris or ike, but he has no choice but to do me.. haha... thats why i had to like take pictures of the cello section with his camera yesterday after the concert.. and now he wants all the newspaper articles i have about my family... =.= oh wells... all the best... you need it when you involve me in your project.. haha... =p

oh wells... things going on in my mind... too many things to think about... if i were to type it, it may offend quite a number of people, and it is just tooooooooooo looooooooong... so i guess i have quite a lot of thinking and self-reflection to do... i guess i have pray about it to solve it... i cant do it on my own... sigh...

yep... dats it...

enjoy!@!

End!!! For Now...

hehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.........
had a great day today, more or less... first of all, i had a concert yesterday (friday), with the artyfakt thingy... i played quite badly... argh! i couldnt believe it! i keep losing count of the bars and i played out of tune!!! its one of the worst concerts i've played in my life... i hated it... we were playing baroque music again... haiz... but at least i'm getting paid for it... then i hung out with some of my church friends... they came to watch the concert, but 1 of them was sleeping.. haha.. oh well...

feeling down now... haiz... shall explain later...

aniwaes, for happier news, the snyo concert today was really really really great and fun!!! my most enjoyable and fun concert i've played so far in my life... we played glinka's overture, glasnouv violin concerto, tchaikovsky symphony no.2, leroy anderson's christmas medly and some carols... it was really fun... ike played very well, and people gave him flowers and soft toys... haha... it was too many for him to carry... he was given about 2 or 3 bouquets of flowers and 2 soft toys, which was a winnie-the-pooh piglet and something else which i cant remember... and on the way back to the backstage, he dropped the piglet... haha... after the whole concert, we were playing some carols, and some of the snyo board of directors came to play along with us... hahaa... i didnt know they could play... they used to be in the singapore youth orchestra back in 1969 along with mr lim... hahaha... memories... so the audience was singing along with us, well, more or less... we could hear them... we were given a huge amount of applause, a long one, and so some people in the snyo suggested to play an encore, which was the glinka overture again, coz it was a really fast paced song... so we played it agian, this time much faster than what we played the first time... half-way through the song, mr lim walked down the conductor's platform and stood directly behind me... it was really special.. it wasnt something anyone would do during a concert.. maybe he wanted to show the people that we could play without him... maybe... haha.. i thought he was heading towards the wind and brass section, but while i was playing, i heard some breathing sounds, like those made of a conductor or player... then i turned around and i saw his looming figure behind me... wah lau... was shocked la... he was holding on to my chair somemore... we did well for the beginning of the encore, but we kinda screw up in the middle because of a stupid reason... we didnt know when to come in because our dear clarinetist wasnt there... that daniel, also the same daniel from nafa... he only had to play the overture for the night, and he left for home i guess after that piece... and we didnt have him in the encore... ahahaa... so i didnt know when to come in... aniwaes, we managed to scrape through it.. and we were given a huge applause from the audience again... at least i thought it was... haha... oh wells...

so after the whole thing, my friend and i went to meet some of the snyo guys at bakerzin at the merlion area... things there are too expensive, but i spent like $16 there, not including service charge and gst, which was like 15%... bleah... haiz... now to tell you why i'm down... we were making fun of someone, and i should have kept my big mouth shut... i told someone a little about it, and i'm not willing to tell her the rest, in order to keep some people's identity a secret... and now she's angry with me... haiz... ehz, dun angry larh.. its just a joke k? it nothing serious, please... i dont like to make my friends angry... so now i'm down, not knowing what to do...

*sigh*

Screwy...

bleeeeeeeeeeee.....
busy for the next few days... soo many performances coming up... haha... today's syo prac, only 6 cellos turned up, and our dear sectional leader wasnt with us, so junjie had to take over... hahahaa... stress arh... and i got pushed forward to 2nd desk.. haiyo... i sit there can feel mr lim's aura liaoz... scary.. he was quite happy today, unlike on tuesday, which some people told... he was mad...

aniwaes... haiz... nothing to talk about.. .theres something in my mind about what audrey said in her blo,g but i lazy to type.. haha.. tomorrow then, maybe, probably, possibly...

Enjoy!~

HAIRCUT

I GOT A HAIRCUT I GOT A HAIRCUT I GOT A HAIRCUT I GOT A HAIRCUT I GOT A HAIRCUT I GOT A HAIRCUT I GOT A HAIRCUT!!!

now i look dumb...

Enjoy~!~!

WHAT A PISSFUL NIGHT!!!

argh!!!
tonight was the most pissful night i ever had!! i was sooooooooooo pissed.... i had a rehearsal at the kampong kapor church, then after that it rained so darn heavily... thats not the thing that pissed me off... it was the stupid taxis in singapore... they are so shitty! pardon my words... i cant stand it anymore... they suck to the core!! i stood in the rain with my cello for half an hour for a stupid cab! at least 20 passed by me which was not hired, and half of them were not on call!! WHAT THE HELL IS THEIR PROBLEM??!! THEY HAVE NO STUPID EXCUSE NOT TO STOP!! THEY DID NOT PUT THE ON CALL SIGN!! IT WAS SO FREAKING OBVIOUS THAT I WAS WAVING AT THEM! AND THEY DIDNT FREAKING STOP!! WHAT THE HELL WERE THEY THINKING?? because of that i was freaking drenched all over... screw them...

haiz... this is my most vulgar blog, the first and last time it will be like this, unless some stupid thing happens again... crap... i dont wanna think about it anymore... concert this friday and sat... go if you want... sat is the syo concert, fri is the artyfakt thingy...... contact for more details...

Nincompoops...

EVILS!!!

haiz... i feel like killing 3 people today... wei kang, samuel and fhairil... these 3 nincompoops played a stupid trick on me... they were eating supper at this indian restaurant at Little India just now... so i joined them about 1 hr after they haf eaten... then they told me they did not have enough money to foot the bill, which was $40, and they thought i had money to help them pay first, and i had onli $3 with me... wth... i was suspecting something lorh, but i thought maybe its true, so we were like panicking on what to do... we tried calling all the nafa people to come down to help us pay or something, thats why some of you guys may have missed calls from me... ahahaa.. and i almost called my dad to come down... then my mother called from hong kong, and i told her my situation, and i kinda got a scolding or rather a lecture from her... wah liew.. then when i was about to hang up, i saw wei kang handing fhairil a $50 note... ARGH!!!! idiots!!! you guys are EVIL!!!

BLEAH!

aniwaes, haiz... the food there was not bad larh.... went there after my rehearsal for the church thingy... it was much much better than what i expected... it was relatively easy... much easier than the previous one...

other than that, i dont have much to write about.. oh... that guy in the syo cello section, zhu en or something like that... ahahaaa... i think he's weird.. he is super duper hyperactive.. he just cant sit still for more than 1 minute... he has to walk in circles to keep himself active, and it drove some of us crazy... he also makes weird sounds during rehearsals.. ahahaa... maybe he's not human... oh well... weird people everywhere...

talking about weird, samuel and i walked past some dark alleys just now to get a bus home... there were some prostitutes in that area, most of them were neither guys nor girls... you know what i mean... and some of them were starring at us.. eeeee... then we walked pass a restaurant, and there were a group od indian guys looking and waving to us... wah lau! noooo!!! disgusting... ewww.....

oook... nvm... looong week this week is gonna be...

EnJoY~!!~

Yongrui My Again

ooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooook...
nothing to blog... only past events which i forgot to blog... haiz... didnt eat dinner tonight, only ate sardines and some otak which my auntie bought... haiz... to start off, i had a really really really depressing dream last night... yes, this time its you again, (understood... =p).... haiz... it was really really depressing... then i woke up, feeling crappy... bleah... haha.. really... never felt worst... haiz..............................................

oh wells... oh... tommy, aka audrey's younger bro, came to school the day before yesterday.. wah lau, he play the piano soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo well larh... betetr than her sis... expected... aniwaes, he was like playing chopin revolutionary etude, and he played it so well, then he said 'die lah, didnt practice for so long liaoz..' .... =.= another andris lorh... soo good at cello liaoz still play piano.. then now tommy, so good at piano then play cello... then me leh? cello only... i hate piano... i dont wanna touch it.. its soooo, soooo, bleah...

haiz.... wei kang's blog is really getting more depressing each passing day... those who are suicidal, please stay away from his blog!!! it is not for the faint-hearted...

sian sian sian sian sian sian... nothing to blog, then everytime after i post my entry, millions of things come up into my head... bleah... then the next day i forget again...

oh, and andris just told me she didnt clear the prata for me... mrs wong is gonna kill me lorh... if she ever finds out who did it... shhhhhhhhhhhhhh.... hush hush..

hmmm.... my bro just had a house concert in my house just now for his students, as in his students perform for the audience, which consists of the students themselves and their parents... so far what i heard was not bad... some played mendelssohn's violin concerto, etc... i think those who played well are from syo one.. haha...

yongrui is at my house again.... yea.. go figure... he was supposed to bring his ps here to play, then he deicded not to... haiz...

haiz... hmm.... oook... nothign to write liaoz... going to watch star wars on vcd now... ahaha.... so looooooooooooooooooooooooong.......

enjoy!~

Bleah...

bleah....
didnt blog yesterday because i was too tired... haiz... so i shall begin with what happened yesterday, which was friday...
went to the zoo in the morning, cause my dad's friend's son came from penang with his mother, so we thought the zoo will be a good place... havent been there for a long time too.. it was kinda fun.. first, we took a tram ride to station 3, just after the first station, we went pass the white rhinos, then the first thing we heard was 'piak'... we looked, and we saw the rhino shitting his guts out.. it was disgusting... the mushy brown stuff coming out from his rear end was really gross... then we went for the animal show, which was unexpectedly good... i think they changed the program, and it was quite funny also.. haha... then after that we walked around the zoo for quite a bit... then we came to the baboons area... omg... their butts are like huge!!! and its disgusting!!! theie butts dont look like butts in the first place... they look like a huge swollen lumps of flesh, as if it was being stung by millions of bees, and they were bright red... like, omg... i think they are in heat or something... wah.... then about 2 minutes later, we saw a male mating with a female... it was like, what, 10 secs? and its over! crappo... it was disgusting... he was like, ok, nvm... girls should not listen... haha... then we saw this baboon eating leaves, then it walked over to another side, then it faced its butt towards us... wah lau!!! it is the most disgusting butt i have every seen in my life!!! it was like this big hole with brown stuff (you-know-what), and it has like undigested leaves in it!!! wah lau!!! they sat on their food!! like, wah lau!!!!!
haiz, nvm... after that went to eat siao long bao, aka "small dragon bun"... the one at tanjong pagar... very nice... then went to school to get my practical results... and WHO IS THAT IDIOT who said our harmony results will be released on friday?? it wasnt... aniwaes, i got a B for practical... really haf to thank God for this.. i thought i would have gotten a C at most... so i told my uncle about it, and he said "ok"... =.=
i mean, haiz... nvm.. haha... considering i didnt prepare much right? oook... nvm...

aniwaes, today, nothing much happened... went to syo prac, and tell you something, jun jie is balding!~!! ahahaa... must go yun nam hair care liaoz... maybe beijing 101 better... dunno... you go try lorhz... hahahaa... aniwaes, sectionals was cancelled cause andris forgot to book the auditorium... but actually can use lehz.. it was empty when i went there... aniwaes, i went to eat italian prata at the prata cafe there... it is like soooo much better than the one at nafa... =.=
other than the service, which almost all indian stalls are bad in, it is considered not bad, but its a little wheee bit too expensive.. aniwaes, i couldnt finish my prata, so i packed it and i went for syo prac... and of course, as usual, i forgot all about it and left it at the music studio after the rehearsal... ahaha... dunno what it will become when i go back there on thursday.. hmmm... oh, andris, did you get rid of it? haha.. if you did, thanks, if not, thursday help me throw.. haha... =p
so, after that i went for sso concert... they were playing mozart's symphony no. ? and mahler no. 1... the conductor was edo duno-what.... haha... it was quite good, and i saw some nafaians there... fei yang, ren quan, the tubists and charles... haha... yea...

oh, i had a very very weird dream last night.. no, its not you andris, surprisingly... haha.. this time it was about evan... ahahahaaaa... the last person i would expect to be in my dream... basically, i dreamt that we were eating in this restaurant which actually looks like my house... it was more or less a high class place... so eva ordered this $600 jelly... hahhaaaa.... apperently the jelly was like made of limited edition powder and there are only like 100+ left in the world and production has stopped 10 years ago... ahahahaaa... wah lau... and the portion was like, the size of your finger... imagine 3 of those, yea, $600 for them... ahahaaa... and evan ran out of money to pay them, cause she only had $580 with her... wahhhahahaa... so rich lorh... thats why can go thailand lorh... aniwaes, i had to lend her $20 to pay... ahahahahaa... and it involves wei kang also... oook, i shall continue the wei kang part some other time... it was really weird...

oh well, thats it for tonight.... nenornefnadner....

enjoy~~

Nuniotnigh!!!

lalalaa...
came back from dinner, or rather supper, which was at 9.30, which was after my syo rehearsal... haiz... mr lim was pissed at the start of it.. it seemed that the brass and wind sections' attendence was really bad... but at least he said the strings' attendence was super... haha... but when he said that, i was looking around the cello section, 3 people are missing... haha... then i was like 'er....'. aniwaes, he was saying, for those people who do not turn up for rehearsal this sat, they do not need to perform for the concert... no need as in cannot, to put in bluntly... then i how?? they have rehearsal on tuesday!! and i cant make it!! ahhh!!! nvm....

aniwaes, going ot the zoo tomorrow morning.. aahaha... bringing my father's friend's son there... he's from penang, so, yea... haha... and guess what... none of my friends are going!!! =(
i asked a number of them but they rejected me, slammed the phone in my ears, shut me up, ignored my smses, deleted my e-mails, slienced my screams, blocked my msn, etc... and you call yourself friends!! =p
no larh.. they not that bad... they only ignored me only...

going to get back harmony results tomorrow, and i'm quite nervous... i heard that those who failed will receive an sms saying they ened to ro arrange a tutorial time... i didnt get it, and they said only 2 failed in my class... i'm afraid that they heard wrongly and that they will announce tomorrow... ahhhhhhhhhhhhh.......... i cant wait for everything to be over tomorrow and next week... sooo many things to do... haiz...

nothing to blog now... didnt do anything today.. totally slacked at home... haiz... oh wells... looking forward to the zoo trip tomorrow.. haha...

enjoy~

Niniandda Nijikopiaer...

ahahhaa...
after yesterday's entry, i dont feel like typing that much liaoz... oh crappo, suddenly i dunno what to type now.. my mind just went blank... bleah... oh... something just came into my mind...

SNYO CONCERT ON THE 3RD DECEMBER, 7.30PM AT VICTORIA CONCERT HALL!!! TICKETS AVAILABLE AT $5 AND $8... COME AND SUPPORT!!!

comecomecomecomecomecomecomecomecomecomecomecomecome.... we will be playing all russian music, glinka, glasnouv, tchaikovsky, and the best part is that I'M PLAYING!!! so come!!!

aniwaes, went to extend my passport today... going to america on the 18th!! cant wait!! i'm gonna experience real snow for the first time in my life!!! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!! then went to sunshine plaza to eat lunch with samuel, not the trumpeteer, the artist... he drew a face portrait of me w/o colour... its amazing!!! he has improved soooooooo much since the last time, and now my dad wants him to draw a portrait of him and my auntie... soooo cooool lo!! those who want their portraits drawn can contact through me... prices negotiable... haha... =p
then went to watch a couple of movies at the com lab which audrey brought... we watched sky high and a little bit of chicken little... sky high is quite fun... haha... and chicken little, omg, it is soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo cute and funny!!! esoecially the fish... aniwaes, after that i had to leave for a rehearsal which i have to play for the singapore youth for christ...

there are sooooo many things to do for this holiday that it doesnt seem like a holiday at all... playing for singapore youth for christ, syo and thomas manhart's church concert, which falls on the day before the syo concert... ahhhhhh.... stressed...

ooook... crap, i had another dream, and its quite scary... hahhaa... yes, same person, different story... shall not talk about it... i kana shocked... haha... oooook.... thats it for today...

enjoy~

Changing Our Destiny?

haiz...
just dont know how to start this entry... quite a lot of things to say... anyways... went shopping with the gang today... they were trying to buy clothes for me... they said i need to change my image... haha... for a reason... and they made me wear this tight green shirt with semi-three-quaters-bermudas... no idea what the heck it is... and i look dumb... like some hippy or beng like those on the streets... i despise them... their attitude and mindset, not mentioning their dressing sense too... not saying that i'm better, but at least i don't think i am cool... they think they are, wearing shorts and dumb heavily pictured clothes with bright slippers that do not match at all... bleah... for those of my friends that dress this way, dont get offended yea? if you're my friend at least i know you guys don't have the stupid beng attitude...

aniwaes, why am i talking about these things? hahaa.. oh, then we went to marche to eat... i didnt buy anything, but wei kang, evan and jwen bought the same wild mushroom soup, crepes, soft shell crabs, and stir fried vegetables... for the vegetables, we were allowed to take as much as the plate would allow, meaning, we can eat as much as we want as long as it fits into the plate, so we made a huge mountain of veges containing mainly of mushrooms, broccoli, a little carrots and those green dunno-what leaves... it was surprisingly good, and it was $6.20... marche is just too expensive... haha... so after that, we decided to speak in the 'f' language... lamo... ahahaaa.... we were laughing like mad in the restaurant... and then we decided to make the 'n' language, this time without repeating the origial syllabal, for those who knows the 'f' language... so wei kang was like going: nelnome no ninnanore.... ahahahahaaa.... go figure what that really means... ahahahaaa.... and the cashier was laughing too... ahahahahaaaa..... oooooook.... so after that went back to school to practice then went back home...

as i was on the way home, lots of things came into my mind, especially what we did today... for those whom i went shopping with, this is for you guys... i really appreciate your effort, although futile, hahahaa, for changing my image for the sake of 'her', but i seriously think we should not continue any of this... the reason is because i do not want to change my image for a person so that i may stand a chance to be with her... i just want to be myself, and whether of not she likes me, thats another thing... if i have to change my image just to appeal to her, i doubt our relationship will last long at all... and that also brings me to another issue.. character, the thing which all of us find about one person... relationship is all about character also, not just looks... i mean this is very obvious... all of you know that... but what i just realised today is, for fellow Christians out there, that we should not change our character for the person we love or like... our first and foremost priority is to change for God... i have seen my sister's relationship for the past few months, and i can say that it is a fruitful one, i guess... from what i have seen, they change their character for God and not each other, and through this, their character change more towards God instead of towards each other... confusing... ahahaa.. yes, but if the relationship is built on God, then it is very natural that the character will change as the relationship grows... you see the difference? what i'm trying to say is that, for Christians out there, do not change your character for the person you love, but change so that you may honour God, and through this way only can you find the person that God has destined you for...

thats why i would prefer not to have any plans to chase after 'her'.. i would leave this to God and trust that he will make the best plans for me... when the time comes, which i will know evetually, i will approach her myself whenever appropriate... ^^

haha, but in any case, yea, maybe i should change my image after all... but need $$$ first... =p
kinda broke right now... and i'm gonna cut my hair... really... dont ask me when, but definitely before the 2nd of dec... i just need to know what i should cut my hair into... hahaa... ideas anyone?? and no, i'm not going to dye my hair... NEVER!!!

as for the conference yesterday, i have decided not to say much at all... in fact, i hardly spoke... for those of you who knows me well, i give people the benefit of the doubt always... i never liked to accuse anybody for anything... there are always possibilities and we will never know the definite answer... but look, you-know-who, i'm not judging you or anything and i have nothing against you, but sometimes the evidence shows quite strongly who did it... if you have done it, admit it, if not, please convince us that we are wrong, but the thing is that the answers you gave yesterday were really not convincing... none of us thought they were... so please do something about it... yes, you are having lots of difficulties and i cant say that i understand your problems, but we are trying to help you here... and sometimes you're not co-operating.. it is not just the smses and all those, but its about other stuffs which we need to clarify... so i really hope everything is settled asap...

so there... shall not type anymore... its already too long.. haha...

enjoy~

Two For One Oh Two For One...

oook....
i'm in school now watching movies... ahahaa... we watched the texas chain saw massacre, land of the dead and cello... haha.... all brought by shu han... he likes gross movies... especially those which shows different ways of spilling blood... haha... and guess what... we just ordered canadian pizza to our school... haha.... $35 for 2 pizzas... craziest thing i've ever done in nafa... and shu han has paid $28 for us... hmmm.... and they are watching cello now... its quite a dumb movie... i think the cursed song is bach's chaconne or some suite... i think they played the same song over for about 20 times throughout the movie... its really dumb... i hate horror movies not because they scare me but directors just cant resist themselves from adding extra loud sound effects and adding artificial sounds just to scare us... and its always the same storyline: REVENGE... just name me one horrow movie which does not involve revenge at all... i cant wait to get out of school now after eating the pizza... haha...

and crappo... haha... i cant believe this is happening... i dreamt of andris again last night!!! ahhhhhhhhh....... i thought it was over... now its back!! noooooooo...... lets see what happens tonight... haha... ooook... i'm awaiting my pizza's arrival... byez...

enjoy~!

Where Art Thou?

hahahahahahaaaa......
oook... i'm a little bit crazy today... and yong rui is beside me... don't ask me why the title is as it is... theres too many things surrounding this entity.... hahah.... OH!!! I DIDNT DREAM OF HER LAST NIGHT!!! WHOOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOO!!! =p

aniwaes, didnt doo anything today... slacked at home and looked at the computer screen for 6 hours... bleah... and yong rui here is spouting nonsense... oh well... it seemed that jwen and evan received a phone call from you-know-know-who... saying must take care of his gf... wah lau... i mean, duh, u haf a gf, take care of her yourself! wah lau... if you can't take care of her, then don't continue the relationship!!! like duh... wah lau... commonest of common sense... =.=

and that 'good friend' of mine, chien han... wah lau... sianz... the thought of him makes me sick... and he's talking to me on the phone now... he's making me lose my inspirations for blogging... my brain cells are decaying every second he's around or near me... ahahaaa...

ok... i seriously have nothing to report today... chien han is sicking every thought out of my br... ble... be... gs... sadf.... gah....

enjoy~!

Another Day...

*sigh*
had syo cello sectionals today... ahahaa... the cello section and some of the bass section saw the 'aunty' side of andris... =p haha... wah, she treated us like little kids... haha... very funny lorh... ahaa... she has this kind side to her friends, but a scary meany side of her to students... haha... jk larh... everybody will become like that one, i guess... haha... our sectionals was supposed to start at 11.45, but we couldn't find a room, so we started at 1 instead... so before that, we went to prata cafe to eat lunch, and discovered many scandalous acts within the cello section... haha... junjie was sexually harassed by someone... hahahahaaa.... and andris, hahaha... nvm... shall not say yours... oh! talking about her again, wah lau, i dreamt of her again last night lorh... =.=
my dreams are getting weirder every night... if i dream of her again arh, something is really really really wrong... haha...

aniwaes, thats all for today, i cant think of anything to write... haiz...

enjoy~

30 more days to america!

Is The End Near?

hmmm....
nothing happened much today... went to school to get my history and study skills results back... the result was quite surprising... i got 59% for my history paper, and my overall history marks for this semester was 65%.. i thought i would get lower than that... eng kiat is not human.. he got 82% overall for history... mad right? haha... and my study skills, i got 72% overall... not bad, considering i didnt do much... and dr kan was quite pissed today... she was quite disappointed with the class coz quite a number people were copying each other's portfolios and journals... haha.. including me... but i didnt copy hor, merely used them as references onli... serious!! but yong rui sad case larh... kana from dr kan like mad... haiz... nvm... we can stand witness for you k? if you pay us well.. =p

anyways, sometime struck me today... when i looked at my results, my first reaction was 'wah! not bad leh...' nothing wrong with this, but it dawned on me later that my attitude wasnt right at all.. considering that my results were better than expected, i didnt think of God first... we should all be aware that whatever good things that happen to us, it is from God... and that we have to rejoice whenever that happens... and also, when we were comparing results, i was reminded of what leslie said years ago... what is our heart attitude or motive in comparing results? issit to comfort ourselves that people are doing worse than us? or issit to see who's better? i'm not putting judgement on anybody, but i'm just asking what exactly is your motive in doing so? we might be surprised at our own answer if you were to answer it truthfully...

oh well, that's all for today... now all we have to worry is our harmony and aural results... screwed!! just came back from my neighbour's house watching star wars, again... haha... having syo cello sectionals tomorrow morning at 11.45... i scared i play wrongly... haha... then andris will kill me... OH!! talking about her, andris, guess what daniel said about you in school today? haha... he said you're getting prettier every week... haha... ooooooo.... enjoy this compliment while it lasts... you'll grow old soon... everyone will... =p

enjoy~

The Day Of Tomorrow...

oooooook....
results will be announced tomorrow... i will definitely fail my harmony unless some miracle happens... really... oh welll... nothing i can do now..

its been a looong day... met up with evan and nuzli today to buy angela her birthday present... then we met up with jovan a little later, then we walked for 4 hours at orchard road, then we couldnt deicide what to buy for her, then i decided to buy a necklace, then we went to takashimaya, then they could not find anything, then we went to heerens, then we looked for awhile, then we bought a pink shirt for her... haha... evan said she will like it, so we trust her, coz she's a girl... and i didnt get the necklace, but samuel and i are going to get it aniwaes... i realised me spent most of our time shopping for ourselves rather than for angela... haha... especially jovan... he was trying out all the ah peh clothes... before that, evan and nuzlie were trying to kidnap me and force me to cut my hair at reds and jean yip... omg... i rather be bald than cut my hair at those places... it was like $33 for a haircut!! we saw the hair styles at jean yip... they were more like alien monstrosities rather than hair...

aniwaes, MY BROTHER GAVE ME A NEW WATCH!!! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.... its time i have a new one... my previous, also given by him, was spoilt... its winding mechanism had a little problem, and it was a seiko, not a really expensive one though... but the one he just gave me is a watch designed for astronauts and pilots from 'fortis'... wheeeeeeee.... and it costs about a thousand bucks now... ahahaa... oook... enough of bragging about my watch... i'm not that materialistic aniwaes...

went for syo rehearsal today... mr lim seemed a little pissed or frustrated... but he cooled down at the end... haha... i really admire this man, man.... he's a millionaire, a filthy rich guy, great violinist/violist, has a good job and great reputation, but yet he gives all this credit to God... he is such a humble man... he told us that when he was young, he soooooo proud because he could play better than his teacher, but in the end God lowered him all the way down below, and he has become what he is today because of what God did to him... it is amazing... and he said he is going to preach one day about God's greatness and love, and that he will repay God for what He has done for him... isnt it kewl??? haha... if you're not a christian, then its a little difficult to follow or understand what i'm saying...

oh well... was supposed to watch harry potter with the gang today to celebrate angela's bday, but i thought twice about and decided not to go... first of all, they're watching a late night movie, at 10.25pm... i will need to take a cab to syo, den from nafa to keep my cello, then take cab to cineleisure, then by the time its finished, it will be 12++, and no bus or mrt, then must take cab back home, which includes midnight surcharge... that will add up to $40++ on cab alone... crappo, and it still does not unclude the movie ticket price which will be booked online... haha... hopefully we can celebrate tomorrow, which is the actual birthday... in any case, HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANGELA!!!

enjoy~!

Driven To The Edge Of My Sanity

oook...
before i write about my life, i will need to write a public apology to nuzli and evan for the previous blog... it was totally unnecessary... so, you have my most humblest apology... oh well... nuzli seemed to take it quite easily... he's a nice guy... sometimes... as for evan... erm... i noticed it rained quite heavily today...

aniwaes, i really have to thank God for what happened today... it seemed that i did not really do very well for my studies... but in overall, i'll say, considering that i was a nervous wreck, it was ok... i was quite calm, but yet nervous... lol... contradicting i would say... but the way to simplify it is i just let go and use my andrenaline to play the best i could... as for the scales and arpeggios, i kinda screwed it up... he gave me C minor, which i totally did not practice... and F major arpeggio, which was very difficult for me... but he taught me how to practice my arpeggios... it was more like a masterclass instead of an exam... haha... i cant believe they didnt give me dominant and diminished 7ths... not forgetting double stops too... all my efforts wasted... oh well... but for those good things that happened, God was behind it i''m sure...

aniwaes, i'm having a paranormal experience... somehow, i keep dreaming of andris for the past few months, and it happened again last night... ahahaa.... freaky... it is like on an average of once a week... it seems everytime she's in my dream, it has something to do with cellos... ahahaa... andris, something is wrong... what issit?? maybe i should quit syo... =p

i seriously need a haircut right now... everytime i play my cello, my hair covers my face... its sooooooooo itchy and it covers my vision... that reminded me of the previous nafa's concert... i couldn't see the conductor coz my hair was blocking my eye... i better cut it before the syo concert... i just don't understand how girls can survive with long hair? like, its sooooo prickly and itchy and...... you get what i mean...

oook... that's it for now...

enjoy~

The Last Entry...

The night before Jesus was cruxifided, he ate his last supper with his followers... so that happened then, so this happen now... i shall blog my last entry before i die tomorrow... practical exam tomorrow at 12.15... i'm gonna die... i had my lesson wif my uncle today, and he was quite pissed... he said my studies werent examing standard... and i made the same mistakes he corrected the last week... argh... and there is still scales and arpeggios which i suck in... it will take a miracle greter than the splitting of the red sea to pass this exam...

aniwaes, let me clarify some things, also known as misunderstandings, here before continuing... NO...i DO NOT like you-know-who... bleah... =p and, that violist from syo, not her anymore... i realised that i just found her attractive, not really attracted to her... and theres something called character... i don't even know her well... and how can you like a person when you don't even know their character? always look at the person's character before considering... thats why feelings can be deceiving... haha.. oook... so its all a mystery again.... go figure...

haiz... now i haf a sharp pain in my left shoulder... dunno what happened... maybe practiced too much? and now i cant think straight... everything in my vision seems blur, and i have a headache right now... man... everything i need to fail tomorrow's exam... aniwaes, i'm afraid that i won't be able to take the exam tomorrow... i need to use the original score, but my uncle lost it, and i have to use the photocopied one... i heard from the seniors that adams tore up one of the students' score before the exam because he wasnt using the original one... crappo...

oh well... all i can do now is to have faith in God that everything will go smoothly... He's all i can rely on now... and to happier things, nuzlie and evan are TOGETHER!!! oops... ahahaa... it is still pending... they seem to be together all the time... ahahaa... ook... evan's gonna kill me... oook... thats it for today... and i'm talking to my sis now over the phone... she called from the states... ahahaa... she has a tornado warning in her area right now... eh, jie, make sure you record it on video k? i wanna see it... =p

enjoy~

A New Beginning Or End?

Ooooook....
handed up my concert attendance portfolio today... crappo... i find it kinda dumb... nvm... handed up already... don't care liao...

sigh... i have a feeling i'm falling for someone in school... ahahaaa... oops... should i say anything about this at all? aniwaes... now its kinda crappy... i kinda like this person in syo, and i shall not say who... haha... and yet, heres this person in my school... hmmm.... nvm... i'm not going to think much about this... i'm not ready for a relationship yet.. at least not so soon... come to think of it, there are just too many things to worry now, and having a relationship just adds on to everything... besides, feelings are most of the time very deceiving... unless i have the assurance that God was the one who patched us up, i won't do anything, or there will be too much trouble... those in nafa will know why... right guys? =p

aniwaes, seng fu came to my school today... he was kinda shy... ahaha... you guys wanna know why? because you nafaians are NOT WELCOMING ENOUGH... ahaha.. so the next time he comes, make sure you guys throw a party... and sing happy birthday to him...

so, we watched some movies, again... watched a little of Exorcism Of Emily Rose, House Of Wax and Star Wars Ep. 3....emily rose was realli quite good... you guys should go watch it when you have the chance... then after that i taught seng fu a little cello... haha... not easy eh? and i'm gonna teach people soon in the same music school as valerie... the owner happens to be my father's ex-student... haha... all the musical contacts... oh well.... then wei kang and fairil came to my house for a little while... they were fooling around with my lightsaber... bleah... =p

ook... enough for now... for some reason, it seems that i have a lot of things to blog, but when i sit down and start writing, i can hardly think of anything... btw, the current song you're listening to now is the main theme from the spider-man movie.... he's one of my favourite heroes.. so, there goes....

Wow......

oooook....
had a wasted day today... more or less...
went to school to practice, then met up with yong rui and seng fu for lunch and movie marathon... haha... we watched batman begins and troy (again)... batman was not bad... it explained lots of stuffs which was lingering in my mind...

aniwaes, went to my bro's house to meet up with my uncle who came by from Australia... then he gave me $50 for no reason... haha... must be God's blessing... i'm in need for cash right now... and suddenly money pop up from nowhere... now burning midnight oil to finish up some of my work which need to be done by 5pm later... bleah...i don't understand what's the use of handing in 10 concert review articles.. i don't see how it helps with our studies in music... i guess its just reading the way they write reviews, but if they are gonna penalise us for using the same source for all 10 articles, then i'll say it's rubbish... listening to Dvorak's Symphony No. 8... didn't know it was this good... i wanted to put it as my blog's song but it's in wma format... so cant... haha... don't you love the haydn concerto? i'm still thinking of what to put next...

well, had a discussion with leslie, my cousin, about some issues, regarding 'you-know-who' in nafa... haha... yes... you should know who... so we were talking about God giving miracles for people who do not believe... i asked him why can't God give a sign of any kind to a person when he or she asks for it... we were kinda unsure of it at first, but we came to a conclusion... when we pray for a miracle or a sign to happen, what is our heart's motive in the first place? does it have any doubts? besides, the bible has shown sooooooooooooooo many signs of miracles and wonders which God has done over centuries and centuries of history, but it is still up to us to believe it... he doesn't need to show us another miracle... it is all in the bible, recorded by men living centuries apoart from each other, yet all share the same principle and beliefs, with no contradicting statements... this is not possible without the intervention of God himself... isn't amazing how it all fits together?

haha... ook... enough for all those... practical exam in 2 days time... hopefully nothing goes wrong...

Enjoy~

Perfectionist Or Lunatic?

back home from school and dinenr with my dad... ate bak gu teh... haha... very nice..

was practicing at school for awhile, then we watched "My Brother" or something like that which audrey brought.. some korean show.. it was really quite touching, almost cried... haha.. serious... probably the 2nd movie that did this to me after pearl harbor...

aniwaes, played haydn concerto again a few times today... then something came into mind... i have listened to numerous people playing this concerto, and i thought, how the heck am i going to play like them? rostropovich, my uncle, andris... ahhhhhhhh... haha... all the pros... the more i hear them, the more i don't believe i can do it... it just seems impossible to me... and if i cant play this piece well, how am i gonna play dvorak??? bleah... it seems that we as musicians, most of us aim for perfection in our music... intonation, dynamics, speed, accuracy, musicality etc... too many things to look for in our playing that it seems impossible to make it perfect... i guess even the most legendary of players were driven to the edge of their sanity to achieve this purpose... so how are we going to reach the level which people younger than us have already reached? hmmm..... come to think of it, i guess getting there is a life-long purpose... i suppose nobody can reach to that level of perfection... and all we can do now is continue to move on? i guess...

another thing came into my mind also... it has been bothering me for quite awhile... for fellow Christians out there... were there times which you feel drifted from God? somehow i am getting this feeling, which is not peasant at the thought of it... sometimes when i pray, or even saying a simple grace, i thought to myself, am i doing this out of habit or do i really mean it? sometimes i doubt that i am doing it with a rightful heart... well, in any case, i sure won't wanna lose Him...

oookkk.... aniwaes, practical exam on wednesday... ahaha... dunno what to do with my arpeggios... i hate them... to the core... bleah... i mean who does? eeeww..... oook... off to play my game... so long!~

Friday...

Ookkk.... 2nd Blog Of This Blog... Just Came Back From SUpper With My Dad, Yong Rui And Wei Kang... THey Are Now At My House, Gonna Stay Overnight.... Again...

Aniwaes, Things Aren't So Smooth Right Now... I'm Quite Anxious ABout A Few Things... First My Practical Exam On Wenesday, Then Need To Hand Up A Couple Of Portfolios On Monday, Which I Haven't Even Started... Oh Well... In Any Case, I'm Sure I Will Get Things Done... Somehow...

Now Yong Rui Just Took Out His New Shoe... oook... i'm tired of putting capital letters at the beginning of every word... aniwaes... yea, he's showing off his new shoes right now... haha... an adidas thingy... mine looks better... oops...

oook... well, hopefully there are people reading this aniwaes... haha.... oook... i'm off....

The Beginning

Alrighty Then... Due To Huge Amount Of Persuasion And Pressure, I Have Decided To Create My First Personal Blog... Come People Have Assured That People Will Visit It, Namely The Guy Who Plays Pipa... Haha... Oookk... Will Blog Later... In School Now, Waiting For My Friend To Arrive... Tata...