haiz...
just dont know how to start this entry... quite a lot of things to say... anyways... went shopping with the gang today... they were trying to buy clothes for me... they said i need to change my image... haha... for a reason... and they made me wear this tight green shirt with semi-three-quaters-bermudas... no idea what the heck it is... and i look dumb... like some hippy or beng like those on the streets... i despise them... their attitude and mindset, not mentioning their dressing sense too... not saying that i'm better, but at least i don't think i am cool... they think they are, wearing shorts and dumb heavily pictured clothes with bright slippers that do not match at all... bleah... for those of my friends that dress this way, dont get offended yea? if you're my friend at least i know you guys don't have the stupid beng attitude...
aniwaes, why am i talking about these things? hahaa.. oh, then we went to marche to eat... i didnt buy anything, but wei kang, evan and jwen bought the same wild mushroom soup, crepes, soft shell crabs, and stir fried vegetables... for the vegetables, we were allowed to take as much as the plate would allow, meaning, we can eat as much as we want as long as it fits into the plate, so we made a huge mountain of veges containing mainly of mushrooms, broccoli, a little carrots and those green dunno-what leaves... it was surprisingly good, and it was $6.20... marche is just too expensive... haha... so after that, we decided to speak in the 'f' language... lamo... ahahaaa.... we were laughing like mad in the restaurant... and then we decided to make the 'n' language, this time without repeating the origial syllabal, for those who knows the 'f' language... so wei kang was like going: nelnome no ninnanore.... ahahahahaaa.... go figure what that really means... ahahahaaa.... and the cashier was laughing too... ahahahahaaaa..... oooooook.... so after that went back to school to practice then went back home...
as i was on the way home, lots of things came into my mind, especially what we did today... for those whom i went shopping with, this is for you guys... i really appreciate your effort, although futile, hahahaa, for changing my image for the sake of 'her', but i seriously think we should not continue any of this... the reason is because i do not want to change my image for a person so that i may stand a chance to be with her... i just want to be myself, and whether of not she likes me, thats another thing... if i have to change my image just to appeal to her, i doubt our relationship will last long at all... and that also brings me to another issue.. character, the thing which all of us find about one person... relationship is all about character also, not just looks... i mean this is very obvious... all of you know that... but what i just realised today is, for fellow Christians out there, that we should not change our character for the person we love or like... our first and foremost priority is to change for God... i have seen my sister's relationship for the past few months, and i can say that it is a fruitful one, i guess... from what i have seen, they change their character for God and not each other, and through this, their character change more towards God instead of towards each other... confusing... ahahaa.. yes, but if the relationship is built on God, then it is very natural that the character will change as the relationship grows... you see the difference? what i'm trying to say is that, for Christians out there, do not change your character for the person you love, but change so that you may honour God, and through this way only can you find the person that God has destined you for...
thats why i would prefer not to have any plans to chase after 'her'.. i would leave this to God and trust that he will make the best plans for me... when the time comes, which i will know evetually, i will approach her myself whenever appropriate... ^^
haha, but in any case, yea, maybe i should change my image after all... but need $$$ first... =p
kinda broke right now... and i'm gonna cut my hair... really... dont ask me when, but definitely before the 2nd of dec... i just need to know what i should cut my hair into... hahaa... ideas anyone?? and no, i'm not going to dye my hair... NEVER!!!
as for the conference yesterday, i have decided not to say much at all... in fact, i hardly spoke... for those of you who knows me well, i give people the benefit of the doubt always... i never liked to accuse anybody for anything... there are always possibilities and we will never know the definite answer... but look, you-know-who, i'm not judging you or anything and i have nothing against you, but sometimes the evidence shows quite strongly who did it... if you have done it, admit it, if not, please convince us that we are wrong, but the thing is that the answers you gave yesterday were really not convincing... none of us thought they were... so please do something about it... yes, you are having lots of difficulties and i cant say that i understand your problems, but we are trying to help you here... and sometimes you're not co-operating.. it is not just the smses and all those, but its about other stuffs which we need to clarify... so i really hope everything is settled asap...
so there... shall not type anymore... its already too long.. haha...
enjoy~
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