Wednesday, April 26, 2006

The Edge Of My Sanity

madnessss.....

its 4.26am at the time i'm typing this now... fisnishing up my concert attendence, which was supposed to be due on monday.... and thanks to SOMEBODY (shall not say who in case he sues me for saying wei kang), i'm not able to hand up my moa and almost everything else on time... =.=

well, doesnt matter... not as if it helps much... well, crappy things going on now... having cello lesson in almost exactly 5 hours time, that means i have to wake up at 8.30, which means i have less that 4 hours of sleep... perhaps i should not sleep now, in case i dont wake up in time.. i cant believe this is happening again, after wei kang and yong rui were sleeping (or rather not) over at my house 2 days ago, which we didnt sleep at all...

i was kinda pissed and tired on monday... i had to play for so many composers, and i tell you, i screwed up at least half of them... i'm so sorry guys!! if any of you are reading this.. i was just.... playing ruccish, and i even almost made of the composers cry during the exam... argh! i cant believe i did this!! this is so pissifying!! what a word... oh well.... they all said it was ok, i did my best.. well, i dunno.... i dunno if what they said was what they really meant.... i hope it was...

so i reached home at 8pm, worn out and not having a chance to take a long nap in school... so i took a quick shower and slept til the next afternoon 1pm...

yesterday wasnt really any better... didnt do anything because wei kang didnt come early enough to pass me my stuffs... i cant print my things from the com lab coz my printing card does not have enough money to do so... i have 100+ pages to print, which will cost me $9... guess i will haf to try again later... so far, i'm probably losing marks like nobody's business for overdue works... haiz............

well, me chatting with eva now... she's always the one up late and probably the only one active enough to tok wif... she's a little 'mad' now... as always.. she probably goes psycho in these hours... who knows...

i'm going to get myself something to eat... maybe i wont b sleeping at all... probably... perhaps...

enjoy)*&%&#)

Sunday, April 23, 2006

To Be Or Not To Bee?

wellll....

crappo... tons of things to do and handed up on monday... concert attendance, harmony portfloio, moa portfolio, history presentation portfolio, sas portfolio, string studies self-reflection, and playing for a handful of composers... haiz... why must nafa ask us to do some totally unnecessary stufffs? i think its rubbish....

well, my uncle told me that i should quit syo... he said that i will not learn anything there.. if i were to join an orchestra, i should join pco or something... well, i enjoy syo... my friends are there, and i sure did learn lots of stuffs there.. in fact, almost more than 90% of my orchestra experience came from there since i started in sec 2... i guess i have learnt what i must now, and maybe i should quit... well, if i were to quit, i will be quitting after this coming concert... i hope it will be a memorable one... as i was on the bus back home just now from school, i was smiling to myself.. haha.. mad it seems... i was thinking of the things we had in the cello section when we were together... it was fun... just as the rehearsal was just now... well, in a way... and besides, i would be missing the aberdeen trip next year... *sigh* i guess i'm not destined to follow syo on any of their tours... i sure did miss the vienna trip.. i practiced so hard for it, but i guess they already prepared the result before the audition... a few other people are leaving too... charlotte, wilbur, ruo lin, andris <--- of all people... haha... and i wonder who will be principal when she leaves? cant wait to find out! i guess there will never be another principal like her... maybe adriel? ahaha.. probably.. or most probably lenard... well, if we leave, all the old generation will be gone from the cello section.. sad... but its gonna happen sooner or later... oh wells... this is perhaps the will of God? after i quit syo, i would be able to attend service as usual, without being late, and definitely able to attend caregroups on thursday evenings, which is not possible now that i have syo from 7-9... all these are about to change...

aniwaes, i was playing for a bunch of composers for their composition exam yesterday, and i was using my uncle's cello.. WOOT!! the sound is great, the sound projection is goooood, and the positions are darn comfortable!! i want that cello!!! but, what are the chances that he will give it to me? =.=
so once i played the first piece, wei ping rushed over to me and said "you must use that cello for your exam!".. yea, i wish i could.. lets see what my uncle has to say about it first yea? so i guess i did quite well for the exam (i hope), cause alan was also saying that the cello sounded great, compared to mine... however i'm suspecting that it is just the strings... coz my cello really need a new set of strings, the oldest string being the c string, for roughly a year or so already... !!! and its mouldy... so, i'll have to wait and get a new set before i can conclude anything.. but the cello itself definitely has a part of its sound...
well, after the exam, dr goh sent me an sms saying "thanks for playing for the compo students... you have a good heart..." well, i guess its no problem... i know the feeling of asking for help and not getting it, so it is my nature to help with what i can... but sometimes, some people can go too far... but so far, its ok... another 5 or 6 more to go on monday i think? maybe... i should be able to survive, considering that we have tons of portfolios to hand up... *groan*

meanwhile, i'll use my uncle's cello as often as possible... muahaha.... he loaned it to sarah so that she can use it for recording.. the school's cello is horrible... thats all i can say about it... cant expect much for a school cello... you cant expect a school to pay more than $10000 for a cello for general use... so, i guess that will have to do...

enjoy)(*^(^$

Monday, April 17, 2006

The Easter..........

*groan*

am in school now.. was practicing with yi kai for his and my exam... crappo... some easter sunday eh?

managed to go for service yesterday coz there was no syo... was glad to see some people there... havent seen them for a year or so...

i'm still in a state of denial that eva is the one in her msn display pic.. its....... crazy.....

aniwaes, playing for a whole bunch of composers on monday, meaning tomorrow... so many compsoers, so little time... i'm the only cellist now, playing for AT LEAST 6 composers... more to come after they give me the scores... it was totally unexpected, because i thought their exam was over for composition, which i played for quite a number of them too just a month or so ago... and now, its the end year exam... oh wells.... this week is gonna be the worst week of all.... have to hand up moa portofolio, history presentation portfolio, moa groupwork, which we havent done anything at all... crappo... on top of that, there is still our harmony portoflio and sas portfolio... havent done anything about it too, and my practical exam is in 2 weeks time, and i have to play for yi kai's accompaniment exam on tuesday... argh!!!! i have to get through this... its possible... definitely.... i hope... probably... maybe... possibly... perhaps... i guess...

ok... nvm.... went to service yesterday and it was great.. went to 2 services, the youth and tertiary service.. its the same aniwaes... no diff... so i met my bro for dinner after that, and we went to pregos... haha... its an italian restaurant.... its really good! and i ate the squid ink pasta... its quite ok.. cant really taste the squid ink though... then he ordered 2 pizzas, both of seafood type, but different settings... very good!! we should go there one day... and my sis-in-law has the raffles card, so we have a discount of 33% for 3 people... its like 50% for 2 people, 33% for 3, 25% for 4 and 20% for 5... i shall consider going there for my first date.. =p
well, so after that we went to raffles hotel to have some cocktail.. interesting place, and its like madly expensive.... but still, we had the RAFFLES CARD... haha... so i got meself a singapore sling, which tastes like fruit punch with alcohol.. quite disappointing... my sis-in-law got some frenchy word drink, made of pineapple juice and coconut thingy with some rum or something.. my brother got himself a zombie, which is made of 2 types of rum with cherry or something like dat.. it tastes like nail-polish, or rather industrial alcohol... it took me about 4 sips to start liking that one... then my brother got another drink, tidalwave.. its like lime and gin and something else... no idea... haha... oh wells.... my cocktail excperience....

so i am here.. in school.. practicing... oh wells....

enjoy)&^%$

Thursday, April 13, 2006

S Wood..........

zzzzzzzzzzz.....

its 4am now and i'm doing my history portfolio... what a life... still stuck with 1 and a half more to go... and still stuck on a keyboard work... argh...

nafa's concert was yesterday... i tell you... it was embarrassing... they invited some sso cellists, namely guo hao and whats-her-face.... no idea wads her name... guo hao must be so pissed with the cello section.. simply because of 2 accidents which happened to him... the first happened the day before the concert.. out dear new cellist and soon-to-be student of nafa, eva (pronounced as 'evil' without the 'l'), accidentally tipped guo hao's cello a little, and apparently his bow was on the cello, and it slid down on the ground... guo hao literally ran to his cello and and took it away from the area, and he kept strring at eva.. poor thing... and she was thinking of how to redeem herself... well, i thought it was nothing compared to what is gonna happen the next day...

it was concert time, and the cellos were entering the stage... i was principal cellist (because they had no choice), so i had to walk out fast... well, guo hao was already in his seat, in the 3rd desk, and i didnt really notice that, until, i felt something hit my right shoulder, followed by a loud 'OI!'.. to my horror, it was guo hao's cello which i banged into, and it was right into his tuning pegs! argh!! the embarassment!! then he starred at me and quickly tuned his cello, which didnt go out of tune at all... man... i can feel all the eyes look at me at that point of time... oh wells... i wonder how much his bow and cello cost... probably more then 5 digits altogether... definitely... well, so now i have to redeem myself too... =.=

my brother and uncle came for the concert... and i screwed up.. big time... yea... my uncle's gonna kill me on friday... the overture was fine, in the beginning at least.. we played mendelssohn's 'the hebrides' fingal's cave... it was fine until we reached the fast part, and i tell you, i screwed up very badly.. i was playing rubbish... the speed is ALWAYS faster that i thought... haiz.. after all the hard work practicing that passage... grr...

well, we played a piece by delius, who is an english composer... quite pleasant... and then, the gu zheng concerto played by ting ting... not bad actually.. thought wei kang would find it crappy, but to my curprise he gave us a 7/10 in context of chinese music...

seng fu and leslie came for the concert, but they left during the interval coz they had something on... well, we played 'the moldau' by smetana.. one of my favourite pieces... it is beautiful, by professionals i mean.. by nafa? we did our best... it was ok... then disaster strikes... we played sibelius's kareleia suite... it was horrible.... nobody dared to play out... in fact, nobody dared to play out throughout the entire concert... well.. it happens...

peter esswood is probably the best conductor we will have for the following few months, maybe even years.... hopefully he will come back soon and save us... oh, and for some reason eva finds him cute? lol... oh, and she;s gonna be sectional leader sooner or later... she just wont believe me... we shall see.. =p

crappo.... 4.30 already... too many things to do... playing for at least 6 composers for their exam on monday.. dr goh even asked me to premier leong yoon pin's work in KL in july, along with his very own piano trio, which is madly crazily difficult!! almost everything in treble clef... *groan*

ok... seriously have to continue with my portfolio... and prepare for the composer's concert i'm playing for later this evening... and will be late for syo rehearsal too... sianz...

enjoy)*&%&^$

Wednesday, April 05, 2006

The Dreaded Month...

eargh.....!!!

projects and portfolios!! bleah.... disgusting and disgustingly disgusting.... so busy now, and so cramped up for time.... just came back from pco rehearsal, playing marriage of figaro in july, the full opera with the slo... maybe fairul will be singing?? hahaha... lim yau was in a good mood today... probably coz its professional ensemble... total different case when he came to nafa.. oh wells... students will be students...

the reason i'm blogging is because i'm waiting for wei kang to be online so that we can discuss about the history presentation tomorrow... so screwed... so many things not done yet... script, co-ordination, roles... argh!! too much!! *grunt*

history portfolio due day after tomorrow... hopefully a tsunami will postpone it... batam trip cancelled.. sad... camping in national library instead.. weird!! so stressed... argh!! ok.. nvm.. think slowly.. calm yourself down and THINK!!!

i'll try...