i am so disappointed with some people now...
just reached home with samuel and gang... talked lots of crap as usual, on bus 80.... this evening wasnt a pleasant one at all... there was extra syo rehearsal today, which happened to have the same time as my clarinet quintet rehearsal... i was originally planning to go for the syo rehearsal coz i have to get used to the guest conductor, and the concert is tomorrow... however, someone begged me to stay for the quintet rehearsal, i really mean begged.... you should have seen the sms he sent me... and he did convince me to stay back for the quintet rehearsal... it was school committment and i suppose i have to put that first... had hardly any choice... i was kinda glad i did though... the coaching clarinet teacher gave us lots of really good advice on the piece...
now, why am i disappointed? well... as most of you know, tomorrow is the syo concert, and nobody, i repeat, NOBODY i know is going... not even those that were quite close to me... i understand... some of you have things going on, my father is teaching, samuel has rehearsal... i'm fine with that... i'm talking about those outside the music circle... yes.. leslie, you should know who i'm referring to... not pinpointing you though... at least i know one of you who is really very interested to go, but you just cant make it.. its fine... but the rest, and i'm sure they're not going to read this... they said they are coming 2 weeks before, but now, one by one they are not coming... why? because they have something on... no, thats not why i'm disappointed... i'm disappointed because they did not keep their word, and they just cant inform me about it... they said they could make it, but at the back of my mind i thought they having a weekly gathering on that day, but i thought maybe they are really coming... well, i was wrong... and never once in my life in syo did anybody in that group came for any of the syo concert... i know, because the concerts are normally on saturdays, which they are always busy on, and i dont blame them.. its fine.. now its on a thursday, probably the only concert on a thursday for the next few years, and they decide not to come... cant you guys make an exception for once? make it into a group outing or something??
its not that i want to be proud that i'm playing and that i want all of you to watch me play... no... i hate that thinking... its just the thing about support... for musicians out there, you know what i mean... playing for somebody you know in the audience is so much more enjoyable than playing for a whole bunch of strangers... samuel, you should know what i mean i guess... conducting for nobody you know kinda drags down your motivation eh? maybe... well, there goes my motivation for tomorrow's concert... i will probably be playing as if who cares... nobody knows me anyway....
well, whatever... now you know why i'm disappointed... yea... fine...
tomorrow's concert is at vch 8pm tix at $6.. tickets are sold there on the spot... yea... as if anyone is going anyway...
Thursday, March 30, 2006
Friday, March 24, 2006
The Glare...
sigh....
back from syo rehearsal.. and i can tell you that it was horrible for me.. the first half was fine, playing berlioz overture and ravel.... it was ok... then my concentration collasped in brahms... we played through the 2nd, 3rd and 4th movement... huge cello section solo in 2nd.... and i screwed up... was confused with the fingering, whether to play on the A or D string, and then the far jump to the high B went out totally... i looked up, and i saw mr lim glaring, or rather starring at me... he was probably starring at me half the whole time... seriously, i screwed up... and then in the 4th movement, i lost all sense of rhythm... i keep coming in early, sometimes late.. couldnt play some of the notes for some reason... i dunno what the heck happened to me just now... i guess i have to practice like mad tomorrow, which reminds me, cello lesson... playing haydn 2 times next week, once for yi kai's accompaniment exam and 2nd for my string class... its pretty unstable, always at my best performance the first two times i play it, after that, disaster for the rest of the day.. i dunno why... it seems i wear out the more i play it... dunno what my uncle is gonna say..
oh wells... the syo concert is $6 instead of $7.. sorry.. my mistake... and the nafa batam 'trip' is confirmed at $75 for everybody, including outsiders... asked wilbur whether he could come, but he's having school at at that time... o'levels this year i think... currently pending is jeremy and andris... hopefully they will go so that my suffering will be eased a little at least...
well, not really in any mood to blog anymore... quite down and lost of what to do now... too many things to practice, so little time, on top of history and harmony projects, history portfolios, methods of analysis portfolio just to name a few... *grunt*
*sigh*
back from syo rehearsal.. and i can tell you that it was horrible for me.. the first half was fine, playing berlioz overture and ravel.... it was ok... then my concentration collasped in brahms... we played through the 2nd, 3rd and 4th movement... huge cello section solo in 2nd.... and i screwed up... was confused with the fingering, whether to play on the A or D string, and then the far jump to the high B went out totally... i looked up, and i saw mr lim glaring, or rather starring at me... he was probably starring at me half the whole time... seriously, i screwed up... and then in the 4th movement, i lost all sense of rhythm... i keep coming in early, sometimes late.. couldnt play some of the notes for some reason... i dunno what the heck happened to me just now... i guess i have to practice like mad tomorrow, which reminds me, cello lesson... playing haydn 2 times next week, once for yi kai's accompaniment exam and 2nd for my string class... its pretty unstable, always at my best performance the first two times i play it, after that, disaster for the rest of the day.. i dunno why... it seems i wear out the more i play it... dunno what my uncle is gonna say..
oh wells... the syo concert is $6 instead of $7.. sorry.. my mistake... and the nafa batam 'trip' is confirmed at $75 for everybody, including outsiders... asked wilbur whether he could come, but he's having school at at that time... o'levels this year i think... currently pending is jeremy and andris... hopefully they will go so that my suffering will be eased a little at least...
well, not really in any mood to blog anymore... quite down and lost of what to do now... too many things to practice, so little time, on top of history and harmony projects, history portfolios, methods of analysis portfolio just to name a few... *grunt*
*sigh*
Thursday, March 23, 2006
3 Maids?
soooooo......
here i am blogging again... today was crappy... as in funny, in a sense... we are having our chamber choir platform, aka small concert, the 2nd wednesday from now... and the whole school is singing... then wheres the audience? the 3 drs and some of the teachers... weird... haha... imagine, 100++ people on stage singing and onli about 5-6 people in the audience... cant imagaine.. haha... well, its so bad that dr goh asked us to release our maids so that they can come for this small concert.. ahahaa.... i dont have any, and mark and wei kang sabohed me, telling dr goh that i have 3 maids... i dont have any at all, at least i used to have 1, ONE.... and i was defending myself saying 'no no!!!' and that genius samuel was like waving his hand in front of my face with 2 fingers up, meaning 2....
and i simply said 'no no!! i got 2!! nonono!! 1! ahh! nononooo! 0!' i was manipulated just like that.... yes, i may have a weak mind..... probably... and they even suggested bringing my chicken along... =.=
i'm still grieving over the lost of 5 of my chickens that died and went missing mysteriously for the past few years ok! =(
so if any of you are interested, this small concert is at my school on the 5th of april, 12.30pm... tix are either free or $5.... come support.. we seriously need it... hahaa...
syo rehearsal tomorrow is probably gonna b conducted my the guest conductor, john farrer... no idea about the backgroud of this guy... but he should be good... hopefully he wont pick on the cello section...
oh.. talking about cello now, nafa orchestra is gonna go batam for rehearsal break... no, not a holiday, but a break for rehearsals, in batam resort or chalet.. so weird... where to rehearse? in the middle of the sea on a kelong? probably... but i'm looking forward to it, and i'm asking some of my syo friends to come along... we seriously need cellos there... the conductor is a very good cellist, and we need supoort!! andris!! jeremy!! somebody!! come!!!!!! currently those confirmed are only 4 people for the cello section... inclusive of our professor kan...
if any of you can play the cello and are interested, call me!! you probably have to pay at the most of $150 for 3 days 2 nights inclusive of food and accomodations, etc... probably includes your shopping cash too... if any of you are considering, i can try talking to our head of music to provide some subsidy...
well, nothing to blog about now..... and somehow my tagboard is now a little corrupted... have to purify it someday.... any exorcists around?
enjoy)&*^$@)
here i am blogging again... today was crappy... as in funny, in a sense... we are having our chamber choir platform, aka small concert, the 2nd wednesday from now... and the whole school is singing... then wheres the audience? the 3 drs and some of the teachers... weird... haha... imagine, 100++ people on stage singing and onli about 5-6 people in the audience... cant imagaine.. haha... well, its so bad that dr goh asked us to release our maids so that they can come for this small concert.. ahahaa.... i dont have any, and mark and wei kang sabohed me, telling dr goh that i have 3 maids... i dont have any at all, at least i used to have 1, ONE.... and i was defending myself saying 'no no!!!' and that genius samuel was like waving his hand in front of my face with 2 fingers up, meaning 2....
and i simply said 'no no!! i got 2!! nonono!! 1! ahh! nononooo! 0!' i was manipulated just like that.... yes, i may have a weak mind..... probably... and they even suggested bringing my chicken along... =.=
i'm still grieving over the lost of 5 of my chickens that died and went missing mysteriously for the past few years ok! =(
so if any of you are interested, this small concert is at my school on the 5th of april, 12.30pm... tix are either free or $5.... come support.. we seriously need it... hahaa...
syo rehearsal tomorrow is probably gonna b conducted my the guest conductor, john farrer... no idea about the backgroud of this guy... but he should be good... hopefully he wont pick on the cello section...
oh.. talking about cello now, nafa orchestra is gonna go batam for rehearsal break... no, not a holiday, but a break for rehearsals, in batam resort or chalet.. so weird... where to rehearse? in the middle of the sea on a kelong? probably... but i'm looking forward to it, and i'm asking some of my syo friends to come along... we seriously need cellos there... the conductor is a very good cellist, and we need supoort!! andris!! jeremy!! somebody!! come!!!!!! currently those confirmed are only 4 people for the cello section... inclusive of our professor kan...
if any of you can play the cello and are interested, call me!! you probably have to pay at the most of $150 for 3 days 2 nights inclusive of food and accomodations, etc... probably includes your shopping cash too... if any of you are considering, i can try talking to our head of music to provide some subsidy...
well, nothing to blog about now..... and somehow my tagboard is now a little corrupted... have to purify it someday.... any exorcists around?
enjoy)&*^$@)
Friday, March 17, 2006
God-Given Gifts...
heh.....
havent blogged for ages... didnt have the motivation to... well, i have some things to blog about now...
just came back from supper with my dad and my auntie, along with his friend from penang, who is an artist... he's probably the only guy who can make the paintings he makes... lol.. well, in a way that nobody can duplicate him, like Monet... he uses the batik technique to create a blur, yet clear and distinct style similar to that of Monet, though differences are quite far apart... and he's holding his solo exhibition at my school in May... come come if you guys are interested... very nice guy too...
had syo cello sectionals and rehearsal today... sectionals was kinda screwy, cause i was the one leading it for the first 30+ mins... it was my first time leading sectionals, so i was kinda lost of hjow to lead them.. so i played through the 1st movement of brahms with them, little did i know that conducting them was the best way, cause andris did that after she came... she was late, cause she had to repair her bow...
oh, talking about the cello section, i dreamt of the cello section last night... yes i know, i have weird dreams... i dreamt that we were all on a train going to germany.. hahaa... frankfurt to be precise, and somehow i missed the train, but i still ended up in it a few minutes later... long and weird that dream was...
well, back to sectionals... after sectionals, we went to eat prata, and thus half the cello section, including the cello and dbass sectional leaders, were slightly late, not excluding myself... so i came, and mr lim asked me to sit at 1st desk... i suppose its permanent, until i do something stupid... i was so freaked out... wasnt even mentally prepared for this... so i played, and i kinda screwed up the ravel 4th movement... coz i was used to reading the top line, but now i have to play the bottom line, and i was confused... better luck on sat...
i was thinking... i was quite happy yet scared when mr lim put me up at first desk... was it from God? i dunno... but i'm sure this is... and there must be a reason why... and now, i have an inner battle to fight... i'm afraid that i will grow proud, something which i am very scared of... for some of you who know me, though i come from a musical family, i try to stay as low a profile as possible... its not because i'm humble, its because i myself feel that i have not lived up to my family's name, more like a disgrace... but now that the 1st desk thing happens, i'm afraid that i will start putting my head up high, as if i'm someone important... it is a rather small thing to be proud of, but its a big thing for me...
why an i so scared to be proud? i have seen many people being proud, showing off, putting their heads up high, and in the end, brought down to the lowest pits by God... if God can give you his gifts, bless you with what you need and among others, he could just take it away in a snap, just like that... God will honour the humble and bring down the proud... and thats the reason... i hope nothing goes wrong from here...
well, maybe i wont be in 1st desk for too long... who knows...
aniwaes,
havent blogged for ages... didnt have the motivation to... well, i have some things to blog about now...
just came back from supper with my dad and my auntie, along with his friend from penang, who is an artist... he's probably the only guy who can make the paintings he makes... lol.. well, in a way that nobody can duplicate him, like Monet... he uses the batik technique to create a blur, yet clear and distinct style similar to that of Monet, though differences are quite far apart... and he's holding his solo exhibition at my school in May... come come if you guys are interested... very nice guy too...
had syo cello sectionals and rehearsal today... sectionals was kinda screwy, cause i was the one leading it for the first 30+ mins... it was my first time leading sectionals, so i was kinda lost of hjow to lead them.. so i played through the 1st movement of brahms with them, little did i know that conducting them was the best way, cause andris did that after she came... she was late, cause she had to repair her bow...
oh, talking about the cello section, i dreamt of the cello section last night... yes i know, i have weird dreams... i dreamt that we were all on a train going to germany.. hahaa... frankfurt to be precise, and somehow i missed the train, but i still ended up in it a few minutes later... long and weird that dream was...
well, back to sectionals... after sectionals, we went to eat prata, and thus half the cello section, including the cello and dbass sectional leaders, were slightly late, not excluding myself... so i came, and mr lim asked me to sit at 1st desk... i suppose its permanent, until i do something stupid... i was so freaked out... wasnt even mentally prepared for this... so i played, and i kinda screwed up the ravel 4th movement... coz i was used to reading the top line, but now i have to play the bottom line, and i was confused... better luck on sat...
i was thinking... i was quite happy yet scared when mr lim put me up at first desk... was it from God? i dunno... but i'm sure this is... and there must be a reason why... and now, i have an inner battle to fight... i'm afraid that i will grow proud, something which i am very scared of... for some of you who know me, though i come from a musical family, i try to stay as low a profile as possible... its not because i'm humble, its because i myself feel that i have not lived up to my family's name, more like a disgrace... but now that the 1st desk thing happens, i'm afraid that i will start putting my head up high, as if i'm someone important... it is a rather small thing to be proud of, but its a big thing for me...
why an i so scared to be proud? i have seen many people being proud, showing off, putting their heads up high, and in the end, brought down to the lowest pits by God... if God can give you his gifts, bless you with what you need and among others, he could just take it away in a snap, just like that... God will honour the humble and bring down the proud... and thats the reason... i hope nothing goes wrong from here...
well, maybe i wont be in 1st desk for too long... who knows...
aniwaes,
SNYO CONCERT ON 30TH MARCH, THURSDAY, 8PM, TIX AT ONLY $7!!! COME COME!!!
enjoy%$#@!@
Wednesday, March 01, 2006
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