Look And Listen!!!

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come on guys... you should know this by now.. look at the conductor and listen to the music... stop rushing.. if you cant look at the conductor, then look at me, although i do make mistakes sometimes, but follow my lead.. come on.. its basic orchestra practice.. you should know it by now.. stop making people scream at you and getting pissed over this kind of stupid mistakes..

haiz.. anyway, i have a few things to talk about.. first of all, about ns.. i just dont understand why guys are trying to wimp out of ns.. come on.. its the time when we start learning discipline and learning how to rough it out.. are you guys men or whimps? ns is something all guys should go through.. its not as if they are sending you to death camps or making you a soldier for life.. so just get in there and learn to be a man lah..

and another thing.. when i was coming home just now, a whole group of super irritating, loud, talkative, trying-to-be-cool-and-think-they-are-so-cool malay and indian teens came up the bus.. i cant stand them.. they are thtop of my racist list.. why are they like that? they talked as if they owned the entire bus, and think they are cool and funny... whatever... they are the most corrupt and have the most disgusting attitudes of all people.. i'm not generalising here.. not all malay teens are bad, like my classmates, but those out there, wearing chains and caps, with ties hanging loose on their necks... who do they think they are exactly? so you think i'm just racist against them? wait til you hear about their own people being racist against them.. i have both indian and malay friends who cant stand those teenies i was mentioning.. now, am i the only one now? can you imagine your own race being racist against your race? that is how stupid and insulting those teenies can get...

anyway, on lighter notes, i dreamt of lim yau last night.. for some reason... lol.. he was in my kitchen conducting cello sectionals! like what the.............. i dunno.. the night before last night, i dreamt of lim soon lee also... so whats next? casteels? zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

i played to strings performance class on tuesday, played faure's elegie... well, i knew the piece quite well.. the only problem is playing it well.. i wouldnt say i did a good job, and i wouldnt say it was bad either.. it was....... ooook... main problem of intonation and vibrato... they said my sound projection improved.. well, that isnt exactly my priority right now, but fine.. christo said he liked the ending.. there was a silent resonence(?) after i played the last long soft note... well, the piece itself is emotional, so its quite difficult to portray it well.. as for the fast passage, i thought my andrenaline whould help me through it.. the fact was it helped too much.. my fingers were going faster than my mind could think, so i rushed a little and of course played some wrong notes, but at least i didnt break down.. more luck next time i guess...

so thats it.. my whiney post filled with complaints and comments... happy reading..

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Turning Point....

yesssssssssssssssss.....

it is official... i wont be principal cellist in syo... well, no, i'm not sad.. disappointed maybe... i dunno... i only played the solo once, and that was it... well, i'm not going to be pissed, sad, angry, etc.. about it.. i have decided.. i'm not going to play music for the sake of being better than others.. i'm going to play music because i want to and i love to... it is my life now.. i guess this is the time when i have to rely on God and his strength, that i may not be put down by others anymore.. in any case, thanks for some of you guys' support... you know who you are.. ^^

anyway, i have a whole pint of ben & jerry's ice cream (brownie fudge chunk) waiting for me in the freezer.. cant wait.. but first, i have to switch on my vcd player and put in my lord of the rings: two towers movie, sit back on my comfy bed and dig in to my ice-cream... mmmmmmmmmmmm....

OH.. talking about lord of the rings, guess what.. syo is actually playing a piece from lord of the ring... lol.. its basically a medly of most of the themes found in the fellowship of the ring movie.. and we are playing it with some malaysian youth orchestra i think.. lol... oh, and mr lim's baton is slightly crooked.. if you actually look carefully, the end of his baton is slanted...

ok... for those of you who knows me well enough, i'm a weird dreamer.. i can dream of anything, anyone, anywhere, anything... so guess what i dreamt last night... hahaa... i dreamt of someone, who actually went shopping for his/her brother's birthday... so when i woke up, i smsed him/her whether he/she has any siblings who had an upcoming birthday... of course the answer was no... yes.. i'm weird.. dont ask me why.. thats just the way i am...

ok.. thats it.. at least this post is like 4982% betetr than the previous one...

oh.. and i havent shaved for 2 weeks... whoooo

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Peace....

*glares*

well, i thought it would be a good idea to make peace with him, but too bad... i doubt i can make it for his departure... not easy being a conductor you know...

oh, nafa appeared on channel u today.. didnt get to watch cause of rehearsal, but i heard that eva and laurel were featured.. haha... eva with her green-coloured hair playing solo... she has a bright future indeed...

i got the principal seat again in nafa... am i happy? not sure.. really... i'm concerned over the reason why they put me there... i dont think its my playing.. maybe its just the fact that i have more experience in leading.. thats all.. i'd rather play well than lead well now...

i thought i had a lot to blog about.. somehow, as always, my mind seems blank now... am trading music with andris now.. her du pre's saint-saen(?) concerto with my rostro's haydn in d... weird.... as always...

oooooo... ahhhhhhhhhhhhh!!! i gotta learn the saint-saen(?) concerto man... have to ask my teacher first... never really knew how to spell 'saint-saen'... anybody??

uh... crap.. this is probably the most crappy post ever... bleah...

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Du Pre....

sad........

haiz... feel so sad now... just watched a documentary about jacqueline de pre on youtube just now.. there are 8 parts to it... its really sad la... wah lau... almost cried.. she's my favourite cellist... her interpretation, technic, character, amazing.... if only she was still alive.. its really a pity that she had to go so early... now i'm also reading a book, hilary and jackie... its an auto-biography of her, written by her sister and brother, hilary and piers respectively... well, its really emotional... the book tells of her life with her family, her relationship with her sister and brother... you know, when i was reading the book, her relationship with her brother seems to be very very similar to me and my sister... and guess what, the brother used to learn the clarinet, then he gave up... hilary played the violin for some time before settling on the flute... you guys should read this book.. i was already about to cry when i read the first 2 pages... can you imagine... if your interested in watching the documentary, go www.youtube.com and search 'du pre and elgar cello concerto'.. there are 8 parts, so watch it in order...

well, on lighter notes, actually, no lighter notes.... just, ...... that.....

nafa had our concert on tuesday with darrell ang conducting.. well, i've thought it through... it was definitely wrong for us to judge him like that.. he is afterall like everyone of us.. he's not perfect.. he's learning and developing his abilities as a conductor... maybe his character has more room for improvement, but dont all of us have too? i dunno... i didnt really enjoy the concert we played that night... he kept glaring at me... when somebody in the cello section rushes, he glares at me and assumed it was me.. well, and he's also biased against me i think... shant talk about it...

didnt get to play the weber solo for syo tonight.. some other day perhaps...

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Solololo...

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right... mr lim asked me to look through the solo part for weber's invitation to a dance.. so that means adriel and i will be 'fighting' for principal seat... well, i screwed up when i played it the first time, which was last thursday... it was fine at the beginning, til i screwed up 2 bars of it in the middle section... argh!! haiz.. i practiced so hard for it!! and it ends up like that.. oh well.. i dunno.. i asked my teacher to help me with it, and she did a great bunch of work on it.. she's good i tell you... she taught me a whole lot of things, important articulation and bow control which i've never thought of.. well, lets just see how it goes the next time i'm playing it, if mr lim considers it that is... adriel will be playing next on saturday, and i wont be going for rehearsal cause nafa is having rehearsal... oh yes, thats another interesting topic...

well, darrell ang is here to conduct us for our next concert.. well, he may be good for professional orchestras, but the whole of nafa agrees on one thing, we dont like him and he cant take students, or professionals-in-training.. he will remain as another legacy, one which the students of nafa will start rising up against... its really funny i tell you... the extent to which we hate him is unthinkable in the music society.. well, its not really about his conducting.. he qued the brass players at the wrong places, scolded them for not practicing their parts when they actually did but was wrong because he qued them in wrongly, actually editing the composer's score (when the composer is my lecturer), and suggested going to every individual wind player's house to give them private coaching... i mean, which conductor would offer to do that??!! its madness!! well, some of us thinks he has other motives for doing that, but thats not for you guys to know.. =p

so, our concert is actually next week, wednesday at nafa theatre, and they invited the music big shots.. lim soon lee, lim yau, chan tze law etc.... yea, wait til mr lim (soon lee) sees me playing.. i wonder what he will say next during the next syo rehearsal...

i watched battel royale at seng fu's house a couple of days ago.. its sick i tell you... SICK... its a japanese show.. its about this class of students who were chosen by the government to be sent to a reomote deserted island to kill each other until only one survivor remains.. it is sick.. imagine killing your own classmates.. they have to, because each of them has a metallic device strapped onto their necks.. if there is no winner at the end of the 3rd day, the collar would explode, ripping your neck off, and of course killing you.. so throughout the movie, you can see human desperation, madness and sometimes trust... but its really disturbing... i still cant put myself to understand how people can kill their friends.. if it was me, i would rather hide in a safe place, not kill anybody, and just die on the 3rd day.. but of course, i may not be sane enough to do that when the time comes... oh yes.. forgot.. each of them has a unique weapon given to them.. those who are lucky gets guns, crossbows, knives or other useful devices.. those who are really suay get paper fans, binoculars, cooking pot lid, and other stupid stuffs... well, sick... thats all i can say about this movie.. it seems japan is always the one coming up with stupid things...

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