God-Given Gifts...

heh.....

havent blogged for ages... didnt have the motivation to... well, i have some things to blog about now...

just came back from supper with my dad and my auntie, along with his friend from penang, who is an artist... he's probably the only guy who can make the paintings he makes... lol.. well, in a way that nobody can duplicate him, like Monet... he uses the batik technique to create a blur, yet clear and distinct style similar to that of Monet, though differences are quite far apart... and he's holding his solo exhibition at my school in May... come come if you guys are interested... very nice guy too...

had syo cello sectionals and rehearsal today... sectionals was kinda screwy, cause i was the one leading it for the first 30+ mins... it was my first time leading sectionals, so i was kinda lost of hjow to lead them.. so i played through the 1st movement of brahms with them, little did i know that conducting them was the best way, cause andris did that after she came... she was late, cause she had to repair her bow...

oh, talking about the cello section, i dreamt of the cello section last night... yes i know, i have weird dreams... i dreamt that we were all on a train going to germany.. hahaa... frankfurt to be precise, and somehow i missed the train, but i still ended up in it a few minutes later... long and weird that dream was...

well, back to sectionals... after sectionals, we went to eat prata, and thus half the cello section, including the cello and dbass sectional leaders, were slightly late, not excluding myself... so i came, and mr lim asked me to sit at 1st desk... i suppose its permanent, until i do something stupid... i was so freaked out... wasnt even mentally prepared for this... so i played, and i kinda screwed up the ravel 4th movement... coz i was used to reading the top line, but now i have to play the bottom line, and i was confused... better luck on sat...

i was thinking... i was quite happy yet scared when mr lim put me up at first desk... was it from God? i dunno... but i'm sure this is... and there must be a reason why... and now, i have an inner battle to fight... i'm afraid that i will grow proud, something which i am very scared of... for some of you who know me, though i come from a musical family, i try to stay as low a profile as possible... its not because i'm humble, its because i myself feel that i have not lived up to my family's name, more like a disgrace... but now that the 1st desk thing happens, i'm afraid that i will start putting my head up high, as if i'm someone important... it is a rather small thing to be proud of, but its a big thing for me...

why an i so scared to be proud? i have seen many people being proud, showing off, putting their heads up high, and in the end, brought down to the lowest pits by God... if God can give you his gifts, bless you with what you need and among others, he could just take it away in a snap, just like that... God will honour the humble and bring down the proud... and thats the reason... i hope nothing goes wrong from here...

well, maybe i wont be in 1st desk for too long... who knows...

aniwaes,

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